this chapter

i'm being confronted

attacked on all sides

he tells me to choose; i'm being indecisive

she tells me hurry; i make no time for her

he calls me difficult; i'm to blame since i'm a girl

the rest push me harder; question everything i do

most only sigh; thinking, "too much drama,"

i can't rest, can't relax, and all i see now

is me.

waiting for nothing

but a tragic ending

and you.

you'll never know

what i was trying to decide

trying to save

trying to be

trying to answer

trying to do

you'll never know

the things i did for you.